Sep 16, 2009

Entitled (rambling thoughts that are in my mind and not proof read!)

Wow, I'm so thrilled that I am posting twice in one week! I am astounded at how sweetly the Lord is speaking and teaching me! I love seasons of life that are like that!

I am reminded as speaking with a sweet sister this morning, and I was fired up again about my purpose on this earth! So many things in our political climate that are changing, so many freedoms that are at stake...In our nation have a responsibility to speak forth and exercise our freedoms, and we have the freedom to hold our government accountable, and vote in leaders and out leaders that will uphold our values and protect the freedoms that the blood of our soldiers testifies of. We are seeing so many things happening and changing and they are scary and uncertain, history repeating itself in ways that did not bade well, and ended in disastrous casualties...all the things the Bible speaks of in
2 Timothy 3:1-7,
Dear friends, this is now my second letter to you. I have written both of them as reminders to stimulate you to wholesome thinking. 2I want you to recall the words spoken in the past by the holy prophets and the command given by our Lord and Savior through your apostles.
3First of all, you must understand that in the last days scoffers will come, scoffing and following their own evil desires. 4They will say, "Where is this 'coming' he promised? Ever since our fathers died, everything goes on as it has since the beginning of creation." 5But they deliberately forget that long ago by God's word the heavens existed and the earth was formed out of water and by water. 6By these waters also the world of that time was deluged and destroyed. 7By the same word the present heavens and earth are reserved for fire, being kept for the day of judgment and destruction of ungodly men.

and also

Matt 24:3-14
3As Jesus was sitting on the Mount of Olives, the disciples came to him privately. "Tell us," they said, "when will this happen, and what will be the sign of your coming and of the end of the age?"
4Jesus answered: "Watch out that no one deceives you. 5For many will come in my name, claiming, 'I am the Christ,[a]' and will deceive many. 6You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. 7Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. 8All these are the beginning of birth pains.
9"Then you will be handed over to be persecuted and put to death, and you will be hated by all nations because of me. 10At that time many will turn away from the faith and will betray and hate each other, 11and many false prophets will appear and deceive many people. 12Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, 13but he who stands firm to the end will be saved. 14And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come.

Listen, I am not saying I'm not a bit worried about things that "could" happen over the next years...I am a mom with kids completely focused on spreading the gospel of Jesus Christ, I know what prophesies say about persecution in the last days...I just know this, I have a burning in my soul to preach Jesus Christ...

1Cor 2

1When I came to you, brothers, I did not come with eloquence or superior wisdom as I proclaimed to you the testimony about God.[a] 2For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ and him crucified. 3I came to you in weakness and fear, and with much trembling. 4My message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit's power, 5so that your faith might not rest on men's wisdom, but on God's power.

Whew, if ever there were words of my own, these are mine right here...

I am not qualified to do this thing that I do, but what I do, I hope to do in the power of the Holy Spirit...

I challenge you to know that we are called to love the Lord our God with everything we are and we are to love others as we love ourselves...If you love God with all you are, you know the best way to love others is with the mind of the midst of a hurting and desperate world, one which may meet their Creator sooner rather than later I sure hope to preach Christ in love with the power of the Holy Spirit and see a lost and hurting world begin to heal from the inside out because of Christ Jesus!!!

I love you friends and readers, more than you could know!!

Sep 13, 2009

I am a bad blogger

I have come to the conclusion that I am not a great blogger!

I want to keep it up because of the sweet friendships I have developed because of it, and I so enjoy reading others blogs, so I want to keep y'all updated, but I'm not sure during this EXTREMELY busy season in my life where it fits! But don't give up on me, I really do want to keep my friends from afar updated on our going ons...

As for today, I have been up since 2AM and finally got out of bed at 5 and have been just doing what ever and getting myself organized and ready for the week ahead..

This weekend has been rainy and in the (wait for it) in the 70's....oh my it was a wonderful Sat of painting and crafting...I am redoing my daughters room for her 10th birthday, so I'm going completely all out! It's going to be darling...Yes, I plan on showing the finished product when it is done!

Today I am going to be seeing my brother for lunch, which I'm so excited...he has been a tremendous asset to my journey of founding a non-profit ministry. Not too much further in the process, but getting closer! I have a lawyer to do the legal that is something..there are so many profound decisions that seem scary to me...positions to be filled with people who share the same heart and passions(not paid of course) , and all the words that must fit into sentences just so to articulate the purpose and mission of our ministry...I know how the heart beats to serve, but to place that in business type terms with out it losing it's umph seems, well, HARD!!

All I know is when I have the opportunity to teach the Word and love people for the sake of Christ, everything is right in my world. Other people in ministry seem to complicate all those things and that is the most frustrating part I have found as pursuit of ministry has been more intentional..

I have to be honest, why do we complicate the simplicity of Christ? He is truly what life is about, and I am confused how so many in ministry and leadership seem to think it is their responsibility to critique and complicate...I am not polished yet I'm teachable, I am not eloquent, yet my speech is filled with love and grace...I see the heart of a people who want to go deep into relationship with the Lord and are overwhelmed with programs and "perfectly structured" fill in the blanks.....________________!!

I know my calling is to Love the Lord my God with all my heart soul mind and strength, and to love others as I love myself...(simple concept)

My heart is broken from some things I have seen lately in ministry...ministry is about serving others, loving others, leading others to Christ...not personal agenda's..

Yeah I am founding a ministry, and you may ask well, don't you have an agenda...the answer..
YES!! My agenda is what the Lord desires! To teach His Word to who ever will listen...Paul says he didn't have eloquent speech or persuasive words, yet he reached multitudes, he was unpolished and rough, yet the Lord esteemed him to do great things for the kingdom. There is a lost and hurting world out there and I desire to love them and serve them like nobodies business!! Whew..

When I knew for sure the Lord was calling me into full time ministry, there was one thing I knew for sure...I am not qualified for this!! However, my heart before the Lord, you say in your word you use the foolish things of this earth to confound the wise, there is none more foolish than me, so i am going to trust you can do what You say You can do in me...I am amazed at what the Lord has shown me in the last 5 years, talk about an thing is for certain, He Is the Lord and I am amazed...

I'm not sure how to close this post because it is a culmination of scattered thoughts, so I will close with prayer..

Lord Jesus, you are the one and only! How I ache to serve You! How I desire to see Your return and to see Your bride as spotless and beautiful as You see her! I love you so...
Give me a heart to love You and to know You more than anything else on this earth, You are so worthy!