Jun 17, 2009

I will NOT be the same!

THE QUESTION that CHANGED MY LIFE-by David Ryser.A number of years ago, I had the privilege of teaching at a school of ministry. My students were hungry for God, and I was constantly searching for ways to challenge them to fall more in love with Jesus and to become voices for revival in the Church. I came across a quote attributed most often to Rev. Sam Pascoe. It is a short version of the history of Christianity, and it goes like this: Christianity started in Palestine as a fellowship; it moved to Greece and became a philosophy; it moved to Italy and became an institution; it moved to Europe and became a culture; it came to America and became an enterprise. Some of the students were only 18 or 19 years old--barely out of diapers--and I wanted them to understand and appreciate the import of the last line, so I clarified it by adding, "An enterprise. That's a business." After a few moments Martha, the youngest student in the class, raised her hand. I could not imagine what her question might be. I thought the little vignette was self-explanatory, and that I had performed it brilliantly. Nevertheless, I acknowledged Martha's raised hand, "Yes, Martha." She asked such a simple question, "A business? But isn't it supposed to be a body?" I could not envision where this line of questioning was going, and the only response I could think of was, "Yes." She continued, "But when a body becomes a business, isn't that a prostitute?"The room went dead silent. For several seconds no one moved or spoke. We were stunned, afraid to make a sound because the presence of God had flooded into the room, and we knew we were on holy ground. All I could think in those sacred moments was, "Wow, I wish I'd thought of that." I didn't dare express that thought aloud. God had taken over the class.Martha's question changed my life. For six months, I thought about her question at least once every day. "When a body becomes a business, isn't that a prostitute?" There is only one answer to her question. The answer is "Yes." The American Church, tragically, is heavily populated by people who do not love God. How can we love Him? We don't even know Him; and I mean really know Him.... I stand by my statement that most American Christians do not know God--much less love Him. The root of this condition originates in how we came to God. Most of us came to Him because of what we were told He would do for us. We were promised that He would bless us in life and take us to heaven after death. We married Him for His money, and we don't care if He lives or dies as long as we can get His stuff. We have made the Kingdom of God into a business, merchandising His anointing. This should not be. We are commanded to love God, and are called to be the Bride of Christ--that's pretty intimate stuff. We are supposed to be His lovers. How can we love someone we don't even know? And even if we do know someone, is that a guarantee that we truly love them? Are we lovers or prostitutes?I was pondering Martha's question again one day, and considered the question, "What's the difference between a lover and a prostitute?" I realized that both do many of the same things, but a lover does what she does because she loves. A prostitute pretends to love, but only as long as you pay. Then I asked the question, "What would happen if God stopped paying me?"For the next several months, I allowed God to search me to uncover my motives for loving and serving Him. Was I really a true lover of God? What would happen if He stopped blessing me? What if He never did another thing for me? Would I still love Him? Please understand, I believe in the promises and blessings of God. The issue here is not whether God blesses His children; the issue is the condition of my heart. Why do I serve Him? Are His blessings in my life the gifts of a loving Father, or are they a wage that I have earned or a bribe/payment to love Him? Do I love God without any conditions? It took several months to work through these questions. Even now I wonder if my desire to love God is always matched by my attitude and behavior. I still catch myself being disappointed with God and angry that He has not met some perceived need in my life. I suspect this is something which is never fully resolved, but I want more than anything else to be a true lover of God.So what is it going to be? Which are we, lover or prostitute? There are no prostitutes in heaven, or in the Kingdom of God for that matter, but there are plenty of former prostitutes in both places. Take it from a recovering prostitute when I say there is no substitute for unconditional, intimate relationship with God. And I mean there is no palatable substitute available to us (take another look at Matthew 7:21-23 sometime). We must choose.-Dr. David Ryser.

Jun 15, 2009

Creatively trying to discipline...

My two youngest kiddo's have been so mean to each other lately.

So when we were out at the awards ceremony, they were just picking and picking at each other so I allowed them to enjoy each other's company by way of holding hands. Josh cried and Jaden egged him on, but after a good 30 minutes they pulled it together and had a great day! Praise the Lord!





Jun 14, 2009

Day at the lake..











Ode to our toilet...

****I'm sure you are thrilled I chose to share this****



I just have to share that in our kids bathroom has had a tragic loss! We haven't got the courage to discover what else may have been it's demise...Inside we found a plastic hanger and a bouncy ball. I think after these two items and the adventure of having to saw the screws in order to remove it from it's base my father and husband decided not to go digging for anything else...





Here is hubs!! I'm sure he was thrilled to spend his Thursday night removing a hopeless cause of a toilet!

Jun 4, 2009

Totally out there...

Some blogs are funny...
Some blogs are memory makers....
Some blogs are devotional style...
Some blogs are scheduled and diverse...

My blog is an eclectic collection of me..I am a goofy, driven, struggling, passionate, loving, ministry minded believer trying to make sense of all the seasons of my life in a way that honors the Lord..

I will probably go back to more goofy stuff on the blog and "sitcom" moments that constantly occur in our home, but for today, I'm going to bare my heart...

Well thanks to the world wide web, and facebook, lots and lots of friends from the past have been resurfacing. I love it! However, while some connections are amazing to have, others have taken me back in time to memories and insecurities that have been left un-dealt with. Mostly stuff from my childhood...

Some may ask why oh why would you subject yourself to that?? Well let me tell you some things I've learned since those days...
~Most every one deals with some form of insecurity from their past and present...
(so I choose to face it and get over it rather than run and hide from it)
~I desire to deal with my past failures and allow the Lord to heal my heart!
~I serve and surrender to a huge loving God, who has given me life and purpose regardless of my past, and in fact He desires to use it...I trust Him in that, and so I'm excited to see what he has in store.
~While I am disappointed that I am not the tiny girl from day's past, it does not change my value and my sweet loving Jesus has opened doors to live my passions and for that I am more than humbled!
~I'm totally forgiven!
Do you struggle with insecurities from your past??

Jun 2, 2009

"June Gloom"??? I don't think so!!














I have pictures on here of my kiddo's...
















Jaden is so fun I love her so!

















Could you just eat them up?? I'm such a proud mama!!









































My passionate, imaginative, baseball loving dude!